Quotes from Wikipedia
"By 2006, 41 percent of Asian American-born women were registered as having Caucasian husbands, while 50 percent were married to Asian American men."
"In the 2000 census... 95,831 Caucasian American male to African American female marriages were recorded..."
Other conclusions:
-There may be a trend between greater education and less endogamy.
-People date are more likely to date outside of their race than to marry outside of it.
Point being: THIS SHIT JUST GOT REAL!!!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Meta Sticking Points (IOW, REAL sticking points)
I know one or two people actually read my blog, so beware: this post is very stream of consciousness, and is probably difficult to read/digest.
Sticking Points:
1. I'm not comfortable around women.
2. I don't trust women (I think they're going to hurt me or make me look foolish).
3. I have no faith in my sexual abilities.
4. I'm not living a life that I love.
5. I think hot and even middling women have no use for me (sexually nor socially) because their lives are filled with more competent, interesting, and successful men than me.
6. I resent how much easier a life women have in many areas which which I struggle (social skills, getting laid).
7. My imagination almost never allows me to see a positive resolution/outcome (If I visualize myself opening the set, something bad will happen. If I visualize myself boning a girl, there will be absurd drama, like an ex with a gun or a hostage situation, lol.)
Logistical sticking points:
1a. I don't go out reliably and approach reliably.
2a. I don't push myself to extend interactions.
3a. I allow myself to run out of things to say.
4a. I'm not comfortable in-set, unless things are going visibly very well.
My ideas for solutions:
1. Get female friends. Approach more sets. Immerse myself in an abundance mentality with women. Spend time around women (aYoooga?!) EDIT: Spend time outside of the house. Live life with other people in social places. Get out of the damn house!
2. Therapy. Lol seriously? Or talk to women and realize that everyone has their own vulnerabilities. Also, start getting success at pickup and socializing and dispel all the hilarious conspiracy theories about women wanting to shame me or hurt me.
3. Keep on plugging away and focus on implementing DEVI into my sexuality. Based on my experiences with sex thus far, ongoing improvement in sexuality will be my metric for sexual confidence, because my past isn't encouraging.
4. Get a better job, make friends, follow my passions (this solution is the most bullshit of all. All I have to do to fix this is transform my entire life. At the same time, I can see how simple a lot of these things are. Getting a job I love is as simple as DECIDING on something I love doing, and plugging away at that until I succeed or can't continue).
5. Start hooking up with hot women. Meet guys that are boning hot women, and learn from them! This is all an illusion. Hot women want me, if I can SHOW them that I have what they want (which IMO is social juice and sexual expertise. I feel like being a decent human being is optional for hooking up with hot girls. Question: could an evil villain bro with AMAZING sexual and social skills keep women around? Would they be quality females?)
6. Start succeeding. Recognize that everyone has their own life and struggles, and it's different for everyone. (Women have their own problems, too.)
7. CANCEL the negative glimpses into the possible future. Why look for anything beyond what will help me? Deal with the bad in the present when it HAPPENS, anticipate the good in the future.
1a. I've struggled with this for a long time. The things that work are:
-I go out more when I have a routinized day (a regular free time for going out to scout pussy).
-I approach much more when I have a wing, and even more when I have a wing that I look up to or am good friends with.
-I approach more when I have a good attitude/outlook and I'm having fun, whatever that means. My definition of "fun" is seriously bizarre these days. (Lately I tend to be amused by lots of meta- stuff, like human foibles, awkward situations, people trying to hide an agenda, etc.)
-I tend to stop going out for a while when I have a bout of low self-esteem, a sicknesss, a schedule change, or I become engrossed in a TV show/video game.
-I tend to not approach much when I am unhappy, thinking about some problem in my life, or am feeling self-conscious.
2a. More social pressure resistance thru more sets. Also, eyes on the prize mentality (meeting new people, trying to share my core, then fucking) where the prize is my motivation for being in set, not a desire to be liked or tolerated or amusing.
3a. Unstifle my inner core. My inner core is already funnier, more garrulous, more convincing, and more REAL than I could ever truly need to harness. I just need to unstifle it. HOW? Social pressure resistance. Being more ad lib. Saying things on my mind without editing. Sharing weaknesses and worries tends to help me unstifle around others (although it's depressing and there's gotta be a better way).
4a. Share as much as I can, every time. Massive field experience. Learn to plow. Allow the moment to "be", and all human failures I might commit are acceptable.
Sticking Points:
1. I'm not comfortable around women.
2. I don't trust women (I think they're going to hurt me or make me look foolish).
3. I have no faith in my sexual abilities.
4. I'm not living a life that I love.
5. I think hot and even middling women have no use for me (sexually nor socially) because their lives are filled with more competent, interesting, and successful men than me.
6. I resent how much easier a life women have in many areas which which I struggle (social skills, getting laid).
7. My imagination almost never allows me to see a positive resolution/outcome (If I visualize myself opening the set, something bad will happen. If I visualize myself boning a girl, there will be absurd drama, like an ex with a gun or a hostage situation, lol.)
Logistical sticking points:
1a. I don't go out reliably and approach reliably.
2a. I don't push myself to extend interactions.
3a. I allow myself to run out of things to say.
4a. I'm not comfortable in-set, unless things are going visibly very well.
My ideas for solutions:
1. Get female friends. Approach more sets. Immerse myself in an abundance mentality with women. Spend time around women (aYoooga?!) EDIT: Spend time outside of the house. Live life with other people in social places. Get out of the damn house!
2. Therapy. Lol seriously? Or talk to women and realize that everyone has their own vulnerabilities. Also, start getting success at pickup and socializing and dispel all the hilarious conspiracy theories about women wanting to shame me or hurt me.
3. Keep on plugging away and focus on implementing DEVI into my sexuality. Based on my experiences with sex thus far, ongoing improvement in sexuality will be my metric for sexual confidence, because my past isn't encouraging.
4. Get a better job, make friends, follow my passions (this solution is the most bullshit of all. All I have to do to fix this is transform my entire life. At the same time, I can see how simple a lot of these things are. Getting a job I love is as simple as DECIDING on something I love doing, and plugging away at that until I succeed or can't continue).
5. Start hooking up with hot women. Meet guys that are boning hot women, and learn from them! This is all an illusion. Hot women want me, if I can SHOW them that I have what they want (which IMO is social juice and sexual expertise. I feel like being a decent human being is optional for hooking up with hot girls. Question: could an evil villain bro with AMAZING sexual and social skills keep women around? Would they be quality females?)
6. Start succeeding. Recognize that everyone has their own life and struggles, and it's different for everyone. (Women have their own problems, too.)
7. CANCEL the negative glimpses into the possible future. Why look for anything beyond what will help me? Deal with the bad in the present when it HAPPENS, anticipate the good in the future.
1a. I've struggled with this for a long time. The things that work are:
-I go out more when I have a routinized day (a regular free time for going out to scout pussy).
-I approach much more when I have a wing, and even more when I have a wing that I look up to or am good friends with.
-I approach more when I have a good attitude/outlook and I'm having fun, whatever that means. My definition of "fun" is seriously bizarre these days. (Lately I tend to be amused by lots of meta- stuff, like human foibles, awkward situations, people trying to hide an agenda, etc.)
-I tend to stop going out for a while when I have a bout of low self-esteem, a sicknesss, a schedule change, or I become engrossed in a TV show/video game.
-I tend to not approach much when I am unhappy, thinking about some problem in my life, or am feeling self-conscious.
2a. More social pressure resistance thru more sets. Also, eyes on the prize mentality (meeting new people, trying to share my core, then fucking) where the prize is my motivation for being in set, not a desire to be liked or tolerated or amusing.
3a. Unstifle my inner core. My inner core is already funnier, more garrulous, more convincing, and more REAL than I could ever truly need to harness. I just need to unstifle it. HOW? Social pressure resistance. Being more ad lib. Saying things on my mind without editing. Sharing weaknesses and worries tends to help me unstifle around others (although it's depressing and there's gotta be a better way).
4a. Share as much as I can, every time. Massive field experience. Learn to plow. Allow the moment to "be", and all human failures I might commit are acceptable.
Condams
Bought 50-pack of Durex Extra Sensitive condoms for $17.95 at Condom Depot. The 100-pack is 25$. Once I think I have enough room for 50 more, that'll be my purchase. The usefulness of the bargains taper off from there, although it's $125 for 1000, which is sweet. Isn't 50 enough for now?
I don't currently have need for that many, but it's less than 20$, and I don't have to transfer one older condom from pocket to pocket to backpack to whatever. Now it's box to jeans, or box to pocket, yada yada.
In other news, my dad and grandparents pitched in to buy me two new custom-tailored shirts. The cost: $370. They better have some kind of amazing function, like creating a Power Rangers Zord or shooting flames.
Yoga has been fucking with my pectorals, so it's difficult to stretch out my arms without pain. However, I love yoga, and will probably do it every day for the next 2-3 months. It's worth the $100-a-month cost. It is, however, taking up all my free time, and I hydrate all day and plan my day around it. If i did it earlier (630 AM, 9 AM) perhaps I would have more time to do shit.
Once I begin my job, I will almost certainly have to do the 630 AM class, so that will involve a lot of time rescheduling. Anyway, whatever. F this S, and S a D. I'm going to bed early, and will celebrate Columbus Day by getting into the field.
Also, I need female friends. How do I get them?
I don't currently have need for that many, but it's less than 20$, and I don't have to transfer one older condom from pocket to pocket to backpack to whatever. Now it's box to jeans, or box to pocket, yada yada.
In other news, my dad and grandparents pitched in to buy me two new custom-tailored shirts. The cost: $370. They better have some kind of amazing function, like creating a Power Rangers Zord or shooting flames.
Yoga has been fucking with my pectorals, so it's difficult to stretch out my arms without pain. However, I love yoga, and will probably do it every day for the next 2-3 months. It's worth the $100-a-month cost. It is, however, taking up all my free time, and I hydrate all day and plan my day around it. If i did it earlier (630 AM, 9 AM) perhaps I would have more time to do shit.
Once I begin my job, I will almost certainly have to do the 630 AM class, so that will involve a lot of time rescheduling. Anyway, whatever. F this S, and S a D. I'm going to bed early, and will celebrate Columbus Day by getting into the field.
Also, I need female friends. How do I get them?
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Yoga
Yoga is good. I don't want to make any claims that I can't back up. I've only been doing it for 3 days, and I think I feel better in general, possibly as a result.
I do it in combination with cardio and weightlifting, because I saw that Jlaix used to write about doing it for the "athletic" look or whatever. Point being, I want a swimmer's body, a yogi's flexibility, and a marathon runner's endurance. Why? Two reasons.
1. Sexy times.
2. Feeling sexy.
That's all.
I do it in combination with cardio and weightlifting, because I saw that Jlaix used to write about doing it for the "athletic" look or whatever. Point being, I want a swimmer's body, a yogi's flexibility, and a marathon runner's endurance. Why? Two reasons.
1. Sexy times.
2. Feeling sexy.
That's all.
OR
I haven't been out in a while, so when I do go out, things get ugly. Awkwardness, running out of things to say, AA, whatever. That was followed this morning by lots of crappy feelings about pickup and life. It's true, if self-pity could be canned, it would sell better than crack.
Gotta get over myself,a nd do something. I'm going to run, work on my abs, and then do yoga.
Gotta get over myself,a nd do something. I'm going to run, work on my abs, and then do yoga.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Birthday
Today (October 8th) I've turned 24. This opens a new chapter in my life. Pick up is important to me, and I want to learn it. I'm willing to dedicate more time and effort to it, especially as I will be taking on a new job soon which will provide me with enough money to get involved in a couple things (new apartment, gym membership, more nights out, potentially learn krav maga, and yoga). My goal is to make 24 my best year so far. That means more fun, more dedication, and less mental yogurt (brain dead time). I want to turn 25 and have everything in my life going in the right direction.
I don't want to break down how I'm going to go about getting my "skillset" right now, mostly because I'm tired and I want to sleep. Plenty of guys have learned how to do this, why not me? Anyway, great success on the 24th, and I can't wait to make this happen. Tomorrow is Day 1.
I don't want to break down how I'm going to go about getting my "skillset" right now, mostly because I'm tired and I want to sleep. Plenty of guys have learned how to do this, why not me? Anyway, great success on the 24th, and I can't wait to make this happen. Tomorrow is Day 1.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Update on Update
I'm turning 24 on October 8th. Expect an update. I haven't updated because I've been sick and hermited for a bit.
I've been doing a lot of work to improve my self-perception, although I've undergone a lot of setbacks and postponements. I've learned that a lot of this process involves awareness/presence.
Nothing to report game-wise.
I've been doing a lot of work to improve my self-perception, although I've undergone a lot of setbacks and postponements. I've learned that a lot of this process involves awareness/presence.
Nothing to report game-wise.
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